There are 6 days left at the castle. Sometimes when I think about it, it seems like such a short time away, and sometimes it feels like an eternity. It’s weird to think that I will actually leave this place, but I have to tell you that I am ultimately glad to be going home.
This has been such an interesting and hard experience for me. I pushed myself out of my comfort zone more times than I can count, I almost feel like I haven’t been truly comfortable in 3 months. My old lifestyle was completely taken from me, and I had to learn to adapt to new circumstances constantly. New teaching styles, new food, new environments, new everything. It took me a while to get adjusted and then I loved it here, but that faded fairly quickly.
There have been some really great times at the castle. Traveling every weekend was amazing and well worth it. The castle itself is beautiful and really cool, but after a while it wears off and you start to miss the comforts at home and the freedoms you used to have. The OSA staff has been so great, they are kinder and more helpful than any of the staff back in Boston.
Everyone has different experiences here. Some people absolutely love it and don’t want to leave, others (like me) are ready to go. I saw a lot of fantastic things and I am so appreciative for the opportunities I have had this semester. I don’t hate this program, I don’t think it’s awful or a waste. But it’s difficult to completely change lifestyles and living situations without any real warning.
This is a great program, but it’s now without its faults. In short, I came, I learned a lot about myself and what makes me happy, and I had a good time. But now I am ready to go back home, to see my friends and family again, to be involved with the things that I love. I want freedom again, not just during the weekends. I don’t want to live in the country and farm land again. I realize this post may be a little negative, but I know that I’m not the only one who feels this way, and I definitely do not regret coming to the castle for one second.
Here’s to 6 more days!